As I am gearing up for the next few weeks it’s going to be very busy time. First I would like to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving! We are traveling to Kansas to see my husband’s family this year for 4 days. This time of the year just seems like chaos for everyone till after New Year’s. As NMO patients this can be challenging for us trying to keep up with everything and trying to take of ourselves. I know for me this time of year is very exhausting and for that I need to thank Starbucks since I will be visiting them everyday till after New Year’s. Once we get back from Kansas I will be decorating the house for Christmas. I am one of those weird people that put up four Christmas trees because I love Christmas trees! Also it’s that time of the year for Elf on the Shelf to appear and this year we are having another elf joining our elf Buddy I love doing elf on the shelf even though I stress about it too much some times. The look on Allen’s face is just worth it every morning when he is looking for Buddy. The following weekend we are staying downtown for one night and will be watching the Christmas lights parade. Then it will be my 35th birthday which I am absolutely dreading to me that means I am 5 years closer to being 40. I think I will have a hard time with that one well I know I will. I recently watched that movie “This is 40.” Yes I will be like her and will be celebrating my 38th birthday for several years. Four days after my birthday I will be doing my Rituxan which we all know that’s a party in its self. Which means I will not be feeling well for a couple weeks. The next thing on my schedule is my husband’s company Christmas party. Which means Eric and I will be wrapping about twenty gifts for the Christmas party gift raffle. Also squeezing in wrapping all the gifts for the kids and family members. I am hoping I will have time to do Christmas cookies with the kids. Started this tradition with Allen ever since he was a baby. Alana was not into it last year but I think this year she will be more into it. Well at least eating the frosting out of the bowl when I am not looking. Then before I know it will be Christmas. We are staying home this year for Christmas so the kids can enjoy playing with their toys.
Even though it will be a hectic time of the year, I am very thankful for the many blessing in my life such as my family. I think we all can to relate to that when it’s the holiday time we forget what matters the most sometimes.
Two weeks ago I had an Appointment with Dr. Michael Levy at John Hopkins. Since Eric and I were traveling all the way from Colorado we decided to Make a long weekend trip and see some of the Monuments in Washington D.C. It was my first time to the east coast and it has been over 10 years since Eric was there. We decided it would be best to leave the kids at home and enjoy a couple’s getaway.
Our flight left late Wednesday night and we flew into Dulles we arrived at 11:30 p.m. Time we got the rental car and drove to the hotel which was in Old town Alexandria in Virginia. It was 1:00 a.m. so we were exhausted. Thursday morning we slept in little and woke up and explored Old town for a while and had breakfast before heading into D.C. We decided to take the metro train into D.C so we didn’t have to worry about parking and traffic. We got off the train at the National Archives and walked through the National Mall heading to the Washington Monument. I couldn’t believe all the museums at the National Mall. You could spend weeks going through all the Smithsonian Malls and other museums. As we approached the Washington Memorial it was just incredible how tall it was and all the different people from around the world was just staring up to the top of it.
Next we walked down to the World War II monument that was very beautiful to see and peaceful. As we headed to the Lincoln memorial we walked right along the reflecting pool. Which is way bigger in person then what you see on TV. When we were at the bottom of the Lincoln memorial I was thinking how am I going to climb all these steps since my NMO Symptoms are starting to hurt from walking so much? I have been walking a ton and I didn’t want to burn myself out since we still want to go see the Vietnam Wall and the White House. When I slowly climbed the stairs to the Lincoln monument and reached the top it was just gorgeous to see! It was remarkable to see how big it is and seeing it on T.V is just not the same. The Lincoln memorial was my favorite memorial to see by far. Once we were done looking at it and reading all the stuff from Lincoln we sat on top of the steps and people watched. I just could not get over how many foreigners where there looking at our American History. The sad part that there were not very many Americans there looking at our history. I had to rest for little bit before we started to walk down all the steps.
The next memorial we looked at was the Vietnam wall that was very humbling to see. Just seeing all the names and all the flowers and gifts people leave there at the wall. After that we caught a cab to head over to the White house since I was getting worn down. It was kind of crazy getting out of the cab and having to walk to get close to the White House. Since you can longer drive on the street in front of the white house and the back of the white house. The have barricades up so you can’t even get close to the fence that surrounds the house. The secret Service guys are very on point and can be a little rude and kind of jumpy with people. We simply just walked all around the White house then I had to take a rest on the Southside of the lawn. So we could walk even more to get back to the train station and head back to Old Town. When we arrived back to Old Town we ate at a great Oyster bar called Hank’s Oyster’s I highly recommend checking it out if you are ever in that area. By time dinner was over we were wiped out and ready for bed since we had a 45-minute drive to Johns Hopkins in the morning and I needed to be there at 9:30 a.m.
Friday morning bright and early with a Starbucks in my hand we headed off to Baltimore to John Hopkins to see Dr. Levy. Eric was worried that traffic would be very bad and would take awhile to get there. We made good timing arriving at 9:00a.m. I have always enjoyed Dr.Levy I have seen and listen to him speak at Guthy Jackson Patient Day for seven years. I have always wanted to fly out and go see him and I was thrilled I got that opportunity, Dr. Levy and I spent a over an hour going through my NMO history and what issues I would like to address. He would like to switch some medications around and do some blood tests and follow up in a few weeks. Since I have been diagnosed for 8 years there was a lot of information that needs to be talked about. Plus he wants to look at my MRI’s when I was first diagnosed to my latest MRI’S to see how my lesions are doing.
After leaving the Hospital we drove around Baltimore a little bit then we went to a crab place that had really good reviews for crab. Eric wanted crabs right out of the bucket. Like when he lived in Virginia Beach. So that was a nice lunch. We decided to take a scenic route back to D.C I wanted to check out Georgetown. LOL it seemed like a good idea but it kind of a pain but we made it to Georgetown the next tricky part was finding parking. It took us awhile but Eric got it done. I wanted to go shopping and stop at my favorite cupcake store Sprinkles! If anyone really knows me I am very addictive to these cupcakes. If I am visiting a city and they have Sprinkle store I will be most defiantly will be stopping by and buying cupcakes. After shopping for a while we headed back to the hotel and rested for a bit and went to a late dinner at a fabulous Southern food restaurant called Hen’s Quarters. It was the best-fried chicken I have had in a long time. We took a nice stroll down King Street after dinner and headed back to hotel cause we were pretty beat.
Saturday was a very special day we decided to spend the day at Arlington Cemetery. I wanted to see the tomb of the unknown solider and the changing of the guard. But also were the Kennedy’s are buried. Also I wanted to spend our last day at a place that was not going to be too crowded with people and was going to be not so noisy and just spend a quite day getting ready to go back to reality. I loved watching the changing of the guard and over all seeing the cemetery and seeing where JFK is buried. We spent about 4 hours walking around the cemetery. We headed back to hotel around 3 and went to a local bar and had a few drinks and went shopping a little bit then off to Hank Oyster Bar again because they had the best crab cake we found during our vacation. We enjoyed our last romantic dinner. Since we had an early flight on Sunday Morning.
Now that I am back home I am still waiting to hear back about the blood tests and on Friday I have an Appointment with my neurologist about what Dr.Levy said and the new medications I Need to try. So I will keep you all posted!
This year marked my 1st year being a sports mom. Allen started Tball in April and finished playing the end of June. We signed him up to play Tball for a few reasons one main reason was so he could play with other kids and second was his best friend from school was also playing Tball. I was nervous about not knowing if he really would enjoy playing and of coarse his attention span. For this being his first year he did a pretty good job. Allen really enjoyed hitting the ball but that’s about it. When he was suppose to play in outfield he would just sit there and play in the dirt. It took him a little while to learn the base patterns but for 4 years old he did a pretty good job! He was Happy T ball was over the end of June since it started to get hot and some of the games he played was almost 100 degrees. The most important thing out of this is that Allen had fun and he met new friends. Hope you all enjoy the photos and the video of him playing. The lesson I learned out of being a sports parent that I wanted to be one of the parents that helps with the team and get to know the kids that are playing on the same team as my son. The other lesson was learning to juggle everything on Saturday for games that were right in the middle of the day.
June 23rd marks my 8th year being diagnosed with NMO. It’s a bitter sweet day to reflect on as I remember how much my life changed within a week. I remember so clearly; I was working at my family’s hotel in Frisco and I was riding the elevator down to the lobby when all of a sudden I couldn’t control my left arm. I walked into my husband’s office since he was the general manager. He looked at me and asked what the heck is wrong with me and to stop waving my arm around. I said something is not right and I need to get to the hospital. Within hours I was diagnosed with Transverse Myelitis, which they thought would likely be my only attack. They suggested that I should be fine after my 5 days of steroids in the hospital.
Almost 1 month later I had another attack where this time my whole body started shaking uncontrollably and I started to go paralyzed on my left side. This time we drove down to Denver and I was admitted to the hospital for 5 days again for IV steroids. They did another MRI and they changed my diagnoses to relapsing remitting MS. I didn’t know what to think when they told me I had MS but I focused on finding a neurologist to start MS medication right away. What a whirl wind experience I had to find a doctor and to start educating myself about MS and all the different medications I had to take. At one point I was taking 15 different pills, which did not include my MS medication that I had to inject into myself everyday.
In August again 1 month after my second attack I started to go blind in my left eye and the doctors did not understand why I was having such horrible attacks since I was on MS medication. My neurologist was second guessing I had MS so I was admitted again to the hospital for 5 days of IV steroids. My doctor recommended I go to the Mayo Clinic and get a second opinion as he thought I had Neuromyelitis Optica. When my doctor told me that I might have NMO he looked at Eric and I and said I would have a better chance winning of the powerball then being diagnosed with NMO. Well within a month I went to the Mayo Clinic and the doctor there agreed I had NMO. Now my life was going to change even more they originally told me. I needed to start taking Rituxan right away and the doctors could not guarantee I would get my vision back in my left eye.
Looking back all I went through and how much my life changed after being diagnosed with NMO it’s been bitter sweet. At one point through my journey I thought I would never be able to have kids and I would never see out of my left eye and I would never recover being paralyzed on my left side. I beat all those things; I have two adorable children, my left eye I can see out of, and for my left side it’s just more weaker then my right. I am very thankful I have seen some wonderful doctors that helped my dream of having kids come true. I have also met some incredible people because of having NMO and I wouldn’t have met them if it wasn’t for NMO.
Guthy Jackson NMO Patient day is always a special day for me. It’s the one-day a year I get to connect with my NMO family. This year marked my 5th time attending this special day, this year I brought my mom. I wanted her to meet my NMO family and some of the doctors that I have talked with. Every year at Patient day Ms. Jackson does a fabulous job putting on this event for patients. It is such a great opportunity for patients to connect with each other and talk to some of the top NMO doctors. It is so nice to talk to another person that has NMO and talk about what you are feeling and they completely understand. This event is so special Ms. Jackson has doctors all over the world to come talk to us patients about whatever questions we might have. Also patients get to find out what’s happening new in the medical world of NMO.
The big topic this year was researchers talking to us patients about trying medical trials for new drugs for NMO. It was very interesting and there were some good points made about this topic. If you are interested to learn more about the clinical trials please visit the Guthy Jackson website there are some great resources there. The also had several breakout sessions this year from asking the Docs, nutrition, mediation, navigating insurance, managing pain and simplifying the science of NMO. It is a day where you can learn as much as you can about having NMO or being a caregiver for a NMO patient.
The other big thing is donating the blood to the Circles program that hopefully helps a cure for NMO. I strongly encourage you to do this if you are a NMO patient and your family. We all have a piece in this very large puzzle and we need to work together to help find the cure.
When the conference is all over with the patients gather around and have dinner and just talk to each other and have a good time. We are all like one big family and we really enjoy spending time with each other and like I said this is a one-day thing we get to bond like this. Its hard to say goodbye at the end of the night to each other. But we know in 364 more days we will be reunited together again.
Allen just celebrated his 4th birthday and I can’t be how blessed I am. When I was first diagnosed with NMO in 2009. It was a huge question if I would be able to have kids. After having three bad attacks it was hard to see having child. After meeting with two NMO doctors we got the green light to have Kids. When we started the IVF process in 2011 I knew it was going to be a journey to have a baby. When Allen was born in 2012 I couldn’t believe I did it! Despite having a very terrifying disease and all I went through I got to a very healthy baby boy.
Allen was such a good baby always happy and just had the most adorable grin. When he turned one year old I could believe how fast it went by. As a first time mom it’s hard sometimes to enjoy every moment, because you don’t really understand how fast it goes by. Allen loved cars since he was a baby but when turned one it was different game. He wanted to drive them, wash them and park them. When he turned two my mom got him a Mickey car he could sit on and push with his feet. To this day he still plays with that car. That’s his favorite car to play within side the house. He loves to go outside and drive his power wheels around the back of the house. He recently gave Alana a ride in his mustang and she was smiling ear to ear. Alana just adores her big brother Allen teacher her about cars and how to drag race. He is in heaven right now drag racing has started and he love to watch John Force. He can’t wait till the drag strip opens up for the summer. Luckily it’s 10 mins from our house. We spend a lot of time up there in the summer. I am pretty sure Allen would sleep up all summer if I let him. He is super excited cause only one more year then he is allowed to do Jr. Dragster. I am hoping I will do ok letting him race. Thankfully I am into cars and love the drag strip too.
Allen had his 4th birthday party at Jumpstreet and had a ball! That’s were he wanted to have it and he wanted the theme to be Jurassic park. He helped me pick out all the decorations to how he wanted his cake. This was the first year he made the decision where he wanted it and what the theme would be. For a week before his birthday he was telling everyone it was his birthday! Like every kid he was sad his birthday came to an end.
When Allen was a baby people were telling me about this Elf doll that comes the 1st of December and watches their children every day till Christmas Eve to see if they are being naughty or nice. Then at night he flies back to the North Pole and gives Santa the report on their child. I just could not believe what I was hearing about all the rules and to what great lengths these moms have gone to make the elf do certain things. I kept thinking in the back of my head. This seems like a lot of work? But every mom told me it so much fun and to see the look on their child’s face when they woke up in the morning looking for the elf to see what the elf go into that night.
Forward to this last Christmas I broke down and bought an Elf on shelf. A Couple of weeks before December 1st I started looking on Pinterst, The web, and Blog sites for ideas of what to make this elf do cute things every morning for Allen to see and get interested finding him every morning. Finding a way for him to arrive was the easiest part. Buddy that’s his name that Allen gave him arrived in a box with a letter from Santa telling Allen why he was here to visit him and all the rules about not touching him. For the first few weeks Buddy was with us I had it covered what to do with him every day. The one thing I had to do is wait till Allen went to sleep that night and then go set up Buddy. I did not want to do it in the morning since I never know really what time Allen would wake up. Like I said for the first few weeks I was great with ideas for Buddy but after that I would sometimes struggle with ideas for him. As I would look for ideas on the web I couldn’t help but think do some Moms have a special container for all the props for their elf? I could not believe some of the stuff they had their elf doing and how much time it would take to set it up. I am sure when Allen gets older I will have to be more creative but this year I think I did a pretty good job for my first year. Allen was very happy with his elf, he was very sad when he left with Santa for the year. I told Allen he should be back next year if he continues to be a good boy. Now the next question is do I get Alana her own elf the girl version? Then I tell myself that’s just more work and more ideas I will have to come up with. We will see I have a few more years to decide.
As we all can agree with from Thanksgiving all the way to New Years is just chaos for a lot of people. I just survived my first year hosting for twenty people at my house. While trying to manage my NMO, having a terrible cold and two sick kids. For people who have never cooked a Thanksgiving dinner may not realize what a production it takes. It takes me a couple of weeks to organize and make a menu. Then a few days to go shopping and pick up everything then a few days of cooking. Then a few days after Thanksgiving to clean it all up and put everything back. While trying to get all this done I try to rest whenever I can even if that means sitting on a tall bar stool to cook. Try to nap when the kids are napping and breaking up my shopping trips into a few days rather go all day running around to all the stores. This year I had two very helpful helpers my mother and Mother in law. They helped me cook, clean or watch the kids. That was so very helpful.
Next during the busy holiday season is my birthday, which is not so stressful on me I get to enjoy being with my family and spending time with them. Eric treated me to a hotel in downtown Denver to watch the parade of lights. It was so nice and enjoyable for all of us especially the kids I didn’t have to worry about if they were getting cold. Now that Christmas is going to be here before I know it. I am buying a lot of my gifts online this year so I don’t have to load and unload kids and bags from the car. Plus how can you argue with buying most of your gifts online while sitting on the sofa with your pajamas on. I just can’t deal with crowds like I use to before NMO and shopping all day. I simply can’t do it. It wears me down so fast then I am in too much pain to deal with Christmas stuff. I want to enjoy Christmas especially with Allen getting older he has been so much fun this year with Christmas. This will be Alana’s first Christmas and that’s always a fun one too. We also decided not to run around to a bunch of houses this year during Christmas. We all can agree its hard living life with NMO then you add all the holiday things that need to get done this time of the year. It can be very hard and can wear you out very quickly. I just try to pace myself the best I can and do a little bit every day so I am not pushing my self too much.
The Miller Family
I wanted to talk about the difference between when I had Allen compared to when I had Alana. I have had a very different experience with my NMO with each kid after I gave birth. After I had Allen I had to make sure I did Rituxan within 8 hours after childbirth. So needless to say I did not get much time with him after he was delivered. I had to go to a completely different floor to get my Rituxan since it’s a chemotherapy drug I had to be moved to the cancer floor. It took over 12 hours for them to infuse the Rituxan the nurse ran it very slow since I just gave birth. That was very hard for me as being a first time mom being away from my son for over 12 hours. By doing the Rituxan so quickly after childbirth my doctors were hoping it would help really decrease my chance having a relapse. After the first infusion I would have to do another round of Rituxan 2 weeks later at my doctors office. About week after my second round of Rituxan my NMO symptoms came back very badly. I started back on my daily symptom pills and was hoping for the best. About 9 months later I had a relapse ended up in the hospital to do PLEX. Within a month I had another Relapse ended back in the hospital for another round of PLEX. I was good for about 4 months when another relapse occurred and was admitted to the hospital again for another round of PLEX. After having Allen I really battle with my NMO even though I did my Rituxan very quickly it didn’t seem like it worked very well.
When I decided to have another baby this time I really wanted not to do Rituxan right after childbirth and try to breastfeed. Hoping that would maybe help prevent having a relapse. I had Alana 3 months ago and I am doing fairly well! Breastfeeding has been a challenge but I am hanging in there! My NMO symptoms are mild right now about a week ago they started coming back. The one symptom I am battling is horrible headaches, I went in for a nerve block and I hope it will work. I will honestly say I feel so much better breastfeeding vs doing Rituxan. My doctor is giving me till September to breastfeed then I will have to do Rituxan. I am hoping I will make it that long! I am being closely monitored by the doctors to make sure I do not flare. I go in every couple weeks to get my blood work checked, to make sure my levels are absolute. My whole family can’t believe so far how well I am doing with my NMO since having Alana. I am truly hoping this time I stay relapse free for awhile.